Waiting for angels to help out

Relationships especially between a man and woman who have gone into an arranged one by the family / friends / society are quite dicey. I have experienced and seen how being involved in healing and bringing up a relationship can skew a person's personality.

Its been a decade now and I am still staring out at a blank wall. "What more does she want?", is the question I see in many an eye, many a face when I try telling out my internal ramblings!!! My personality has now got layers but which are darker in shade. I was never a pessimist but now am a skeptic all around.

Its been written & said since ages: "Never lose faith"! Oh, yeah right!!!! Especially when the breakdown happens when you start rambling in front of your pet cockatiels who stare at you as if you are some strange item!!

Angels are there, I believe. Sometimes its only with half a heart! I think that in my case, all the Angels take a coffee break! Or maybe a lunch break which runs on for years!!

I guess I just have to go with the flow!! :P :P :P